Ryan & Isabelle

We found a small little place next to my mom and her dad and went in. "Wow, this is...decent right?"

"Yeah it is," I said quietly. "I like it. I like it here too, it's quiet."

"I wish you would try and smile, not hide your face so much. You are so beautiful."

"Only to you baby," I said quietly. "I hate my face. I look like the... fucking Joker off Batman or something."

"No you dont baby, stop saying that." i said holding her closer.

"It's just how I feel Ryan," I said softly and laid my head on his chest. "I don't even want to look at myself anymore. I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel anything close to beautiful."

"You will. It will take time. Now, we need to go eat, and i wanna go check on Raine and the others.

I nodded a little. "Alright," I said quietly and let him hold me close for a few more minutes. "Everything is... just perfect when it's just me and you like this," I said quietly.

Ryan - "Baby every and anywhere with you is perfect."

Izzy - I smiled. "I'm glad you feel that way. I love you Ryan," I said and kissed his cheek.

Ryan - "Love you too sweetness, now come on, lets go look around."

Izzy - I nodded a little. "Okay," I said and leaned against him as we started to walk through town. "It's nice here. It's really quiet."

"Yes and smells clean. I think its gonna be good for us."



"I think so too. Anything is better than there and... at least here we don't have to really worry about anything."

"I....i saw Cam looking at me yesterday. I mean i wanna hate his ass, but, i sighed, mom told me i need to know it wasnt him. I dunno. I think Q was warned as well not to shoot anyone else."



"What do you mean it wasn't him, of course it was him. Him and... and the others. I don't care what anyone says, I don't want to be anywhere near him."

"I meant that they had been given drugs, not it wasnt him personally. As for you, no i dont expect you to ever forgive them. I wasnt asking you too."



"They all should be shot. I can't believe he had the nerve to come here with us."

2 week jump...

I jerked awake from a bad dream and sat up slowly, not wanting to wake Ryan. I rubbed my face then got up and went to wash my face, avoiding the mirror as always.

"you know, you may surprise yourself if you'd just take a chance and look at yourself. You are beautiful you know." I said watching her.



I shook my head a little. "Thanks baby, I'm glad you think so. I'll pass on the mirror though. I don't want to see, so there's no reason to look."

"Izzy, please stop. You are not ugly. They are only scars. Noone even notices them. I promise." i said and took her in my rms. "I love you so much and hate how you feel about yourself."

"It's not just the fact that they're there Ryan. Although that's bad enough. It's... how they got there," I said and laid my head on his chest. "Every time I see them I... all I can see is his face... his face as he dug the knife into my skin," I said quietly. "I see all their faces. Then I hear them laughing. Then I hear what they said... see what they did... I don't want to think about... any of it. If not looking in the mirror helps then I could care less if I ever look in a mirror again."

"Yoiu need to talk to some one i think. Maybe someone whos been through it."

"I don't know if that would help or just make it worse," I whispered and leaned against him more. "I don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm so tired of being afraid. Who do you think I should talk to?"

I shrugged, "maybe you, raine and chelsi and a few others should start a little support group. I mean damn almost every woman here has been raped or abided by a PK someway or another."

I nodded a little. "That's true," I said quietly. "I'll... I'll talk to a few of them. See if it's something anyone else might be interested in." I turned my head and kissed his cheek. "Thank you."

I brushed her hair back and smiled, "Thanks for what?"

I smiled a little and leaned into his hand. "For suggesting that. And just... for being so amazing."

"Im not the one who is amazing, you are. You have been through so much and yet...here you are, trying to smile everyday."