Training Center

Mar 29, 2017 4:20:03pm

"If you're up to it." - Ben

"I'm glad you're okay too," I said and hugged her back. - Tyler

"They're better off without me. I'll just hurt them like I hurt everyone else." - Quin

Mar 29, 2017 7:57:54pm

"I'm...seeing and talking to people again. Quin's mom came to me." Aurora

"That's good of him. Hopefully they find more people." Grace

"You're being a pussy." I got off of him and stood up, when he did the same I drew my fist back and punched him. Asher

Apr 10, 2017 10:31:26pm

I couldn't help but smile a little. As much as I never could understand how that was possible, I knew how much having that connection meant to her. "What did she say?" - Ben

"I hope so." Now how to bring up what I really wanted to talk about with her... - Tyler

I didn't even try to flinch away from the punch and my head snapped back when contact was made. "I deserved that." - Quin

Apr 10, 2017 10:59:06pm

"She asked me to watch out for Quin. Which as you can see, that's not easy." Aurora

"Should we talk in private?" I asked, not sure how Jordan would feel about that but hoped he trusted me. Grace

"You sure as fuck did." Asher

Apr 10, 2017 11:07:22pm

"I can definitely see that. Did she say anything else?" - Ben

"It's up to you." - Tyler

"Anymore you wanna throw at me? I'm not gonna fight back. I just don't care anymore." - Quin

Apr 11, 2017 12:15:28am

"To watch out for Raine too. She's the more difficult one, really. When Quin is upset he'll let you know. Raine isn't wired that way. She's a lot more reserved." Aurora

"It'll be fine. Come on." I told him and found somewhere more quite for us to talk. Grace

"You picked a shit time to stop caring. They need you more than ever right now. Raine lost her mother too. Ever think about her?" Asher

Apr 11, 2017 12:29:33am

"I'm sure that comes with everything she's gone through." - Ben

After we found a place where no one else was milling about, it still took me a few minutes to speak. "Do I get to be a part of Spencer's life now? Or is it still my fault that I've been away all this time?" I asked quietly. - Tyler

"Every single day." - Quin

Apr 11, 2017 12:32:36am

"It does. At least Quin screams and shouts. Buy, you never know with Raine." Aurora

"What do you mean? It was never your fault Tyler. Of course I want you to be part of his life. You're his father." Grace

"That's a fucking lie." Asher

Apr 11, 2017 9:02:23pm

"She's been through a lot. Much more than anyone, especially someone her age, should've had to deal with." - Ben

I didn't say anything for a minute, relief rolling through me. "Thank you. I'm glsd. I just didn't... know what to expect. You're married and... I haven't been around... Spencer doesn't even know me." - Tyler

"You think you know what's going on in my head all of a sudden? Like you've ever been able to break through my shield? Give me a break." - Quin

Apr 11, 2017 9:11:28pm

"She really has." I said, looking up and giving him a small smile. "I don't deserve your kindness." Aurora

"He'll get to know you. He has to get to know all of us. I was with him as much as I could be but they limited me a lot. It was a nightmare. Not being with him. I cried myself to sleep every night." Grace

"I'm about to give you a break. Literally. I never claimed to know what's going on in your head but I've been through this too incase you forgot. Now, get it together. I just lost my father and step mother. I can't fucking lose you too." Asher

Apr 11, 2017 9:51:12pm

"How can you possibly think that?" I shook my head. "You deserve way more than you give yourself credit for." - Ben

"Wait. They wouldn't even let you see him regularly? That's fucking bullshit, you're his mother." - Tyler

"There's nothing to lose. I've already lost myself. I don't have anything to give anyone anymore." - Quin

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"Thank you. I'll try to think of myself better." Aurora

"I seen him more than most thanks to Jordan, but it was still hard." Grace

"Whatever. Are you coming back with me or should Mason go get Brown Eyes? Do you want her to know about this?" Asher

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"You should. You're amazing and a wonderful mother." Ben

"I can imagine." Tyler

"She doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. Neither does Joy. My sons don't even know me and the person I am... it's not someone they need in their lives." Quin

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"Thank you so much." Aurora

"Are you okay?" Grace

"You're crazy if you think any of that, Quin." I looked over at Mason and nodded. "Go get her. Since he won't fucking listen to reason." Asher

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I smiled. "I'm just speaking the truth." Ben

"As okay as I can be. Are you?" Tyler

"Call me crazy then. And don't you dare. Just leave her be. She deserves to be happy and Ben can make her happy. I've only ever just fucked things up and you know it." Quin

Apr 12, 2017 2:35:39am

"What do we do now? With us?" Aurora

"I am. I'm okay." Grace

"Let me tell you something, Quin. Is Aurora upset? Yeah. She is. But that doesn't mean she wants you to die. She fucking loves you and if you offed yourself what do you think would happen to her? She's strong no doubt, and would remain that way but the guilt would be on her shoulders. I'll be back." I turned and started heading back to the training center. Not sure what to even think about all of this. Mason

Apr 13, 2017 9:21:03pm

I didn't say anything for a minute. "I'd like to work on us. Start over? If you want?" - Ben

"Good. I'm glad. I worried about you every day." - Tyler

I shook my head and just started walking, knowing Asher would follow me but I didn't care. - Quin

Apr 13, 2017 9:27:01pm

"I would love that, actually." Aurora

"I worried about you too. I should have checked on you in person but it was nearly impossible to do that." Grace

"You aren't the only one with a fucked up head, Quin. But we have to talk about it." Asher

Apr 13, 2017 9:29:04pm

I smiled and leaned over slowly, placing a soft kiss on her cheek. "I was really hoping you would say that." - Ben

"I know it was. And I'm sorry for what I did. I just didn't feel like I had any other options at the time." - Tyler

"There's nothing to talk about." - Quin

Apr 13, 2017 10:21:22pm

I moved closer to him and kissed him again. We were holding one another when Mason found me. "What's wrong?" Aurora

"I'll give you one guess."
Mason

"Where is he?" I asked as Ben and I both got up. Aurora

"I'll take you to him. He um....tried to do something stupid." Mason

"Will you come with me?" I asked Ben.

"There's nothing to be sorry for, Tyler. We'll make all of work." Grace

"Bullshit." Asher

Apr 13, 2017 10:33:25pm

"Of course. Anything you need." - Ben

"I hope we can. That would make me so happy." - Tyler

"There's not. Just let it go," I said, still walking. Just let me go... I thought to myself.- Quin

Apr 13, 2017 11:54:05pm

"Thank you. Lead the way Mason." I said and the three of us left together. Aurora

"You can come and see him now if you want." Grace

"If you give up then I might as well give up too." Asher

Apr 14, 2017 6:48:11pm

I smiled. "I'd love that. Thank you." - Tyler

I scoffed. "Yeah cause that makes a shit ton of sense." - Quin

Apr 14, 2017 7:24:23pm

"You're welcome, Tyler." Grace

"We've been through the same shit. If your life isn't worth it, mine isn't either." Asher

Apr 14, 2017 8:56:59pm

I followed her and felt a big grin come over my face, tears in my eyez, as I looked at my son. - Tyler

"That's how you're gonna try to convince me? Really?" - Quin

Apr 14, 2017 8:59:23pm

I knelt down so I was face to face with Spencer "Sweetie, do you remember the stories I have told you about your father?" Grace

"Just saying. How did you feel when I tried the easy way out?" Asher

Apr 14, 2017 9:34:25pm

He nodded and looked at me and I wanted to go to him so bad but I waited, not wanting to spook him. And her asshole husband was watching me too. - Tyler

"Easy? You think any of this is easy? You think the shit in my head is easy?" - Quin

Apr 15, 2017 3:14:22pm

"This is Tyler. Your Dad." Grace

"No, and you aren't the only one. And to give up now after all of this is fucked up." Asher

April 14, 2017

I knelt down so I was face to face with Spencer. "Sweetie, do you remember the stories I have told you about your father?" Grace

"Just saying. How did you feel when I tried the easy way out?" Asher