Cruz Ostermann

I got him in the cabin and in bed. "You hungry?" i asked, still embaressed i had kissed him.

"Yeah, but you don't have to cook for me. I can manage." I smiled "But...if you really want to, I guess I won't argue."

"You know i want to, or i wouldn't have offered. Do you remember much about your brother?" i asked as i went about cooking something.

"He wasn't a bad person when I left, he just chose to stay because of his daughter and her mother. We are exactly alike in looks and voice though...It's kinda hard to believe he's that evil now like she said."

I stared at him a moment, then shaking my head said, "Ive known you since we all came here. I could never imagine you ever being mean, let alone evil. Although ive seen you tough with the boys."

"Tough when I have to be." I chuckled "You girls though, I have soft spots for you."

"i know, like sisters right." i said and turned to finish cooking.

"I guess you can say that." I said, watching her "Doesn't really apply to all of the women though."

I put the food in a bowl and on the tray and brought it to him. " well, i just know you are very protective of us all."

I smiled when she brought the food to me "Thank you, looks delicious" I said "Fix yourself a bowl too, and have dinner with me. It's been too long."

"Are you sure, he nodded, okay, sure." i smiled. I made me a bowl of the rabbit and herb stew, sitting back down. "Ive gotten to be pretty good at this cooking thing."

"You're very good at it, I don't remember a time when you were bad."

"Well, ive tasted feenys cooking. Thank god she can sing." i laughed. I looked at him and smiled when he caught me. "You know, i would've killed her today had she really hurt you."

"Don't take a chance on getting yourself hurt over me, Scarlett. I was more worried about you than I was myself."

"Aww, dont worry about me. Im a big girl now. Im pretty damn self sufficient and you saw im a damn good shot. I..well i was thinking of taking off for a while. yanno seeing something different."

"What the hell gave you that idea? We don't know what's out there, could be dangerous."

"I have been training and i mean, we dont know. Just like we didnt know what was out here. Im...im just...i dunno. I just seems i dont fit....anywhere in here."

"What do you mean, you don't fit in?" I asked her and she didn't say anything "Talk to me Scarlett, please."

"I dunno, my sister has this family and...the kids are all getting older and all hormonal about one another. Darnell and Cole and all the others..i shruggged, i am alone and i hate it and i just...this is stupid." i said and stood up. "You fnished."

"So, you're lonely for companionship?"

I shrugged, not looking at him. "This...i shouldnt have said anything. I sound like a whiny child."

"No, you don't." I told her "I don't want you to leave Scarlett, I would miss you. So would everyone else."

"I know. I will miss all of you too, i really will. I have made up my mind though. I am gonna go." i said as i washed the few dishes.

"Maybe I'm not being clear enough so let me rephrase. You are absolutely not going off out there, alone."